That to do so has been an amazing paradox.  That youthful flare I had been terrified would burn out before making The BIG difference has faded away into a steady, too-hot-to-hold ember, one which I am guaranteed will warm me until the next Morning's Illumination.

"God" is an expanding exercise in the interpretation of information gleaned from experience.  Some condense this definition into Consciousness, although biological evolutionists consider the first statement to be verifiable (therefore, for them, more "real") yet consider "consciousness" to be a sort of frivolous anomaly arising from the dynamics of life.

Regardless, it is information that organizes matter, transported through energy.  It is Information (and the interpretation thereof) that allows Life its valiant fight against the entropy found rampant throughout all other existence.  This process of creating order within the backdrop of increasing entropy is an experience in which Life feeds information back into itself, which allows its next idea, if you will, to adjust in the illumination of prior inefficiencies.

Alright, who's got some Advil?  I'm not stating anything different than you'd find in a Wilber or Wright tome.